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Kpop writings....

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Nov. 24th, 2013

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the 66 projects for exo pairings

sehun/lay sehun/luhan kris/lay kai/d.o. suho/kris kai/sehun
tao/sehun kai/luhan baekhyun/chanyeol kris/luhan chanyeol/kris kris/tao
suho/luhan luhan/lay baekhyun/kai kai/lay suho/chen kris/chen
chen/tao baekhyun/d.o. xiumin/luhan kai/chen d.o./sehun suho/d.o.
suho/xiumin kai/kris chanyeol/d.o. xiumin/tao xiumin/chen baekhyun/chen
xiumin/lay d.o./chen baekhyun/lay kai/tao sehun/xiumin lay/chen
suho/baekhyun chanyeol/chen d.o./lay suho/kai chanyeol/xiumin lay/tao
sehun/kris kris/xiumin chanyeol/kai chanyeol/luhan baekhyun/luhan luhan/chen
suho/chanyeol baekhyun/sehun baekhyun/xiumin chanyeol/lay luhan/tao chanyeol/sehun
d.o./xiumin baekhyun/kris d.o./kris kai/xiumin suho/tao chanyeol/tao
d.o./luhan baekhyun/tao d.o./tao suho/lay suho/sehun sehun/chen

Dec. 8th, 2012

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I'm sorry.... i trully am....

but i must do it.... 
I'm trully sorry again
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Oct. 30th, 2012

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too late, forever late

it's getting harder to get yourself understood and expressed as days pass. 

Lately, i found myself in situations that weren't too ... pleasant, rather disturbing and... annoying. i noticed, and not only at people around me, but at people in general, in nations and through the whole world that we - people - would rather ignore than make an act, decision or just something to change a situation or reality. 

we would rather ignore and pass on without having the littlest remorse.

well these things hurt; and it hurts so fucking bad when you know that something could have been changed by other kinds of attitute.

my advice: make a change and don't pretend anymore that you're not involved. in this society, this whole world wide society of human race, we're all involved, and we are the one creating it, making its evolution or involution.
so stop ignoring and express your opinion.


 
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Aug. 22nd, 2012

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personal...

i can't express my feelings right now. it's hard, really, and no one will ever understand or know this pain inside me.

when i was a child, i was told to die. they didn't want me to live, they wanted to let me die,to abandon me.
i was told to die, someone i don't want to ever remember telling that dying is a better solution than what it could next in my fragile life.
i didn't die. i was afraid at that time. i was a kid. i didn't want to disappear because i barely existed and i wanted to live.

i wish no one would ever be in the situation of being told to die. not even once... 
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Apr. 9th, 2012

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Writer's Block: Woof, Squeak, Meow, Hiss

Tell us your favorite story involving one of your pets, past or present. Post a picture of your pet if you have it!
it chewed all my computer's wires while i was out of the city and stood at home only with mom. i missed only two days and horror when i came back.
but i still love her... soooo very much
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doowwnnn

all my inspiration is soooo down and screwed, i can't think anymore. i need serious help here...
right now.
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Apr. 3rd, 2012

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Question, feel free to answer...


Lately i'm in big trouble. i fell sick with rubeola and i'm isolated inside the house with nothing to do, but mind comploting things.
so, this weird idea came.
i want to write something about obssessions, mental problems, craziness, ocd, but i have no idea in which fandom, how and until when. all i know it;s that i'm getting obssessed with this, feeling the need to write something like this. a behaviour problem and delusional things can appear. mostly based on the obssession for someone, probably with some gore and violence, idk yet.
what i'm asking? does it sounds at least appealing cuz if not i'm not going to do it.
dunno, but i'm not confident enough on this...
so....

Poll #1831173 What should i do?

Should i write?

yes.
5(83.3%)
is that even an idea?
1(16.7%)
no
0(0.0%)

please vote. please do.
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Mar. 13th, 2012

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Writer's Block: Bookmarks

Underground by haruki mukarami
What is the last great book you read?

Feb. 28th, 2012

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Photographing the need


Title: photographing the need. Help me by coming closer
Rating:  PG\
Genre: general, angst, romance
Warning: loneliness and family life, the pain of losing someone,
Synopsis: A pained little soul brought Changmin right in front of his destiny, making him photograph it with his own camera, making him keep the memory 






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Feb. 20th, 2012

who runs the world?

FIC/ Homin - photographing the need. Help me by coming closer - twoshots

Title: photographing the need. Help me by coming closer

Rating:  PG

Genre: general, angst, romance

Warning: loneliness and family life, the pain of losing someone,

Synopsis: A pained little soul brought Changmin right in front of his destiny, making him photograph it with his own camera, making him keep the memory forever.

                                          




                 

                                                 One


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Feb. 16th, 2012

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Lately, everything had been a big crap...

Sigh....
Oh well, people, sometimes i wonder why life is so shity with me... find no answer. really. 
lately, i found myself deep buried in shit and crap all around me and i wonder how much longer i can take. i feel like breaking down soon and yet it seems i can endure a lot more. i hate my life now... this life i have in the last two months....
the city drives me insane. humanity seems to go crazy and wants to fuck with me and my brain. why does it have to be so much noise around me, crazy, fuckers drivers that don't even know to drive?! i've almost been hit two times in a week. guess retards will always remain retards.
it's not like i'm angry and curse everyone around and shit around, no, i'm just tired of this crazy life and sometimes i feel like hiding on a lonely island, with no one around but my things and music.
i've been kicked out of the house.... ironically, cuz i already wanted to leave but now i guess i'll leave for real. my projects seem to never end and it last forever to work even the tiniest bit. i can't sleep at night... i can't think intensely anymore and i sometimes fid myself arriving at home and just starring at the ceiling while trying to sleep. fuck all this... i can't take it anymore.
i'm tired of fighting, arguing, trying to save something that doesn't even exist anymore. i'm tired of always trying to comunicate and live well.
and to make it even worse, it's a shitty weather outside, always cold, snowing like shit and sometimes raining, then again snow. it snowed for the last mouth continuously, it reaches 2 meters, outside the city even 3. i'm starting to hate it, especially when i have to wake up at 6 in the morning and leave at 7, come on, people... what the fuck some people think i am?
i'm not of steel...


anyway... in a word, i'm glad i'm back online, hope i'll stay longer these days, but i guess i won't have time. let's just enjoy this time...
         
                            
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Feb. 13th, 2012

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i need homin






































































































Special gift: credit to chibisuz... i couldn't resist. Yunho knows it...






CREDIT: 
well: 
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nternet, tumblr, sm, maybe even on the pics. i have archives from all over  the net so... don't blame me. 
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Feb. 10th, 2012

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fic - Seungho/Joon - Men are helpless too - oneshot

Title: men are helpless too

Rating: R

Genre: angst, romance.

Fandom: mblaq – seungho/joon

Warning: ….

Synopsis: different people are helpless in front of life. In a way or another….









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Jan. 31st, 2012

jaejun

FIC/ myungjong - Want - drabble

Want

Infinite, pg, myungsoo/sungjong, sunggyu!hyung/sungjong, drabble




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Jan. 30th, 2012

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this will continue - my life needs a photo spam



"are you confident about this, changmin-ah?!"
"No!"
 












he needs help, he really needs it! 

Of Course! 



yes, married! *crying* 



...... yeah.


always the epic one at the end! ^^ 



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Jan. 24th, 2012

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my life needs a photo spam


o
kay. 
the reason to this post?! i doesn;t need a reason! it just exists. my life seriously needs a little break with some pictures. so let's start... 





















and now i'm pretty much like this! ::



but the list goes on ^^ 




















let's just end it here for now! ^^ 
i've totally ruined my night! can't sleep now... 




MISSION COMPLETE! ~~ 

A/N: credit goes to whoever created them, also to SM and to the INTERNET~ 
they belong to tumblr all of them as much as i can remember! 

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Jan. 14th, 2012

who runs the world?

FIC/ Homin - take me down - drabble

Title: Take me down

Rating: PG

Genre: angst
warning: maybe, posible, not quite sure, prostitution   

Synopsis: take me down, with all the promises.



Jan. 9th, 2012

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FIC/ Homin - Skydiving into crimson roses and whispers of the night- oneshot

Title: Skydiving into crimson roses and whispers of the night
Rating: R
Genre: romance, romance, fluff and angst.
Warning: character of death [drowning], failure at writing other than romance and angst. [Damn, it’s so hard to make a scene like that

Synopsis: a fate we couldn’t have in this life will be complete either way or not.


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Dec. 18th, 2011

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FIC/ Homin - Christmas - oneshot

Title: Christmas?!

Genre: fluff, romance

Rating: PG

Fandom: homin

Warning: silliness, tentative of fluff

Synopsis: Soft lips were applied against his and he giggled lazily, passing his arm around the other’s neck.





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